punten2.. misi2.. boleh ga ada sesi kurhat sedikit disini.. hmmfffhh…

aaarrggghhh… ada apa sih sama badan gw.. kayanya ga nyingkron banget antara mind, body n soul… bnr2 ga nyingkron… my body is divided into 2 parts, autonomic controlled, n somatic controlled.. analisis gw,, badan gw yg dipengaruhi sama saraf somatic ini ga apa2.. ga ada masalah apa2.. tapi yg dipengaruhi sama otonom ini yg bermasalah,, anxiety disorder, stress induced asthma, stress induced gastritis,, n what next??

aarrrghhh.. sebel bgt.. knp sih ga bisa biasa aja gt? knapa sih ga bisa aja nyingkron di saat2 yg sangat dibutuhkan ini?? apakah ini juga bagian dari panic attack? entahlah.. hmmffhh.. mungkin gw terlalu parno sama ujian sekarang.. klo dipikir2, gw udah melewati ujian kaya gini 3 kali,, masa iya gw masih stress jg?? apa yg salah? apa gw terlalu takut ngalamin kejadian yg sama ky kegagalan taun kmaren? apa karena gw merasa blom siap apa2 dan ga tau apa2??

mind,, is in d air now.. it control d whole of me now.. think, think, and always think!!! am tired of thinking.. where’s my feeling? i even cant notice it.. i, as a woman, supposed to have a tendency to use her feeling, not her mind!! maybe i’m tired feeling it.. it makes me so numb.. i even not predicted before that this will affect me so much. Gosh!!

Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering…